2014年9月30日火曜日

片恋

初めてあなたの手にふれたのは
サンタモニカの海岸通り
陽光に満ちた手つなぎの径(みち)は
追憶のかなたでまどろんでいる

初夏の夕べに
ジャカランダの木の下で佇んでいると
きょうも あなたのことばかりが
洋梨の香りをたずさえて 潮騒のようにさわぎたつ
海ツバメの羽毛のように身も心もときめいて
僕は大空へと舞い上がる

ああ あなたに逢いたい
僕の鳩尾(きゅうび)は
晩秋の回廊の陰で朽ち果てた
北風にふまれる茜葉のように
静かに燃えるだけ

青い月の光をおびて
あなたの愛くるしいしぐさは
水煙にかげるナイルのしらゆり

遠くから見つめていると
あなたの甘味な吐息を
僕の口もとにおぼえる

ああ するとどうだろう
僕の胸はいたくはりさけて
ビオラの弓弦(ゆづる)で
熱く げきれつに弾きうたれる


2014年9月29日月曜日

思いやり

ベテランのヨットマンが太平洋で遭難して行方不明になりました。命綱を装着していなかったのが原因らしいのです。コラムニストは「基本に忠実でなかった熟練ヨットマンの油断」と断定。紙上で厳しく批判していました。

僕は命綱を一時的にでも外さなければならなかった理由(わけ)が、ベテラン・ヨットマンの頭の中に潜んでいると思います。熟練者になればなるほど、基本の重要性を熟知しているからです。

学校に行かないからといって、通学しないことだけを取り上げて叱責するのはやめてください。登校拒否をするにも、理由があるのです。「なんとなく」、「行きたくないから」、「理由なんてない」。こんな返事がかえってきたら、これが理由だと思ってください。


いつも相手の立場になって物事を考えてあげると、その子が成長した暁には、とても思いやり深い人間になっているのです。

2014年9月27日土曜日

感謝の証し


ジョイが8年生に進級して、来年はいよいよハイスクール。
一つの区切りと致しまして、関係者に僕の証しを配布しました。

校長先生 副校長 牧師 7年生の担任 8年生の担任

家族ぐるみのお付き合、ジョイの仲良しアッシュリーの両親

ジョイの仲良しセーラのお母さん

かつてお世話になった魂の友、看護師のジュリ・コックス

ウエスト・ロサンゼルス・ホーリネス教会・英語部

カイザー病院のチャプレン

カイザー病院のフィジカルセラピスト

僕のために祈り続けてくれた。なんと感謝なことか!!!

祈っても、祈っても、罪を犯す僕だけれども、主を信じる者にかわりはない。今日もイエス様にまもられて、平安な日々を過ごしています。ハレルヤ!!!!!!!


September 2014  “Testimony of Thanksgiving”
Masayuki Arai



Ms. Karie Martin



Praise the Lord.  I truly thank you for all of your prayers.  Without your intercessory prayers, I wouldn’t have recovered this much.  From the bottom of my heart, I want to thank you all.

Until today, I have been battling terminal cancer through three major operations and radiation treatments.  Now, it has been about two and a half years since I’ve started treatment with a new anti-cancer agent in clinical trial. 

As soon as I started this new treatment, I felt that there was a stiff swelling on my right chest.  After examination, it was determined that the cancer has spread to my bones.  However, as I continued with the treatment, gradually the swelling has gone away.

After a while, near my hip was swollen and hurting.  It was unbearably painful.  I’ve been going through treatments after treatments and yet, the cancer has spread again to a different place.  This time, I really was depressed. 

One night when both my wife and Joy has gone out and was alone in a quiet house, I was in deep prayer.  From my heart, I was focused in prayer of repentance. 

The next morning when I woke up, the swelling in my hip has gone away.  I thanked Jesus Christ who healed me so fast.  However, for few days, I was doubtful that I was truly healed.  I was unfaithful.  I doubted the healing power of Jesus Christ.  Once again, I repented. 

Since then, I changed my prayers from “heal me,” to “I am healed!”  When you have confidence that you are healed, you can feel more of His wonderful healing power.

Few months ago, there was a swelling in my mouth. When my tongue and teeth touched, it hurt.  I thought the cancer has spread again.  Hoping that I’m worrying too much, I trusted Jesus and with confidence, I prayed that I was healed.  Then after few days, the pain and the swelling was gone. 

The Lord is alive in my heart.  When I saw the radiant light of hope, I praised Hallelujah.  I did the same thing when Joy had a stomachache, then it went away in few minutes.

Today, I am continuing chemotherapy, but I do not have any side effects.  Even my doctor is surprised with this.  He says that he has never seeing a case like this.  This truly is grace of God. 

I have an appetite and I am writing again.  I’ve started an essay column in newspaper and magazine.  Also, I am continuing with my life work of poem and critics.

By guidance of Jesus’ healing, I am in thanks everyday.  I want to ask for your continuing prayers. 

Lastly, I want to thank everyone again.  I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

In Christ, Amen.



Few words and “Flower Blossomed”
Masayuki Arai



My life is full of mistakes.  You can always correct mistakes, but there are no redoing successes. 

The life of a flower is short.  Yet, it reaches to flourish beautifully and proudly.  Even in difficulties, let us live our lives fully.

In life, when we stumble, our hearts tremble.   You cannot learn the important lessons without stumbling.  Grass continues to grow strongly, even when it is stepped on over and over.  For every set backs, you learn to be kinder.  Kindness is a treasure. 

Oppressed is the heart that feels oppressed.  Jinxed are those feeling they are jinxed.  Those who live positively are those who reached happiness.

Sing when you are upset.  Dance when hate crosses your mind.  To forget is to forgive. 

My cancer is at stage 4.  I was pronounced that I have four months to live, but there is no need to fear cancer.  Laugh it away.  At the gate of laughter is the cure for cancer. 

Without the agony of suffering from terminal disease, I would’ve lost the true love. 

“Through cancer, God’s love, I acclaim”


Flower Blossomed

In the mountain of rubble, a flower of the field blossomed.
Taught me to be beautiful and to be strong.

In the midst of sorrow, blossomed a delightful flower.
Graciousness sprouted, be peaceful, an Angel whispered. 

In misery, a flower of hope blossomed.
More beautiful, ever and ever.